Yesterday, I had a mental breakdown. The drive home was so frightening that the moment I saw Paul, I burst into tears. I was so happy to be alive and needed to relieve the pent up stress from white knuckle driving through downtown Minneapolis.
Honestly, why do you people live here? Do you not know California exists? I kept thinking to myself, “Why am I putting myself through this? Why is anyone driving? This is so dangerous.”
My first winter driving in slick conditions and it’s one of the worst the locals can remember. Also, I just hate driving in general. Icy roads exacerbate my fears. It’s not the roads that scare me; it’s other people. People are stupid and they drive.
Did I mention a bus slid past my car? Yes. A. Bus. A few inches to the right and I might not be writing this blog post.
So, my Beetle has to navigate along icy streets while I pray idiots in vehicles of varying size don’t kill me.
You know how people drive when it’s sunny and warm? They do that when it’s -1 and icy snow is compacted beneath their tires.
Do you see that top photo? That’s what the streets looked like last Saturday. They still look like that on Tuesday.
I’ve reached my breaking point with this weather. I worked from home today because I just couldn’t bring myself to get into the car. I could feel a panic attack welling up inside me as I laid in bed trying to will myself to get out of it.
This craptastic weather is supposed to last for another week or two. Can someone please help me maintain my sanity? I’ve thought about seeing a therapist, but I have a feeling it would go much like Sheldon talking to Leonard trying to overcome his stage fright. I would not be impressed.
The one and only time I’ve ever gone to a therapist, I remember thinking, “So, I’m not screwed up. This lady is pretty much giving me the same advice I’ve heard from my parents and my friends. I’m done here.”
I think my problem really stems from an overload of stress. This winter is HIGHLY stressful to everyone. Add to that planning a wedding, which I’m excited about, but is a stressor nonetheless.
Tomorrow the forecast is supposed to be god-awful again and driving conditions around the Twin Cities are not going to be improving. Paul’s class was canceled tonight “due to the impending weather” as he put it.
So, will winter ever end or have we entered another ice age?